Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Where Have I Been?

Good question! But the answer is hard to say. I've been in a funk and just having a hard time dealing with life. Every bit of it! But I am finding out that I really am not alone. Life is not easy and that's just the way it is! Thankfully, I have hope and grace from my Lord Jesus! Hope that one day I will be with Him in a perfect place(because this world ain't never gonna be perfect!!). And grace to live this life one day at a time, knowing that He will cover those areas where I am lacking. And there are LOTS of those! Boy oh boy has it been hard lately! Micah has tried me to the try on a daily basis lately and I have been so angry and LOUD! But I am pretty sure I didn't yell today. Hey, that's improvement! And coincidentally(or maybe not!), things went better with the kids. Like they were listening more and stuff. Hmmm...


I not-so-smartly drank a cup of regular coffee at 9:15 tonight, which should explain the post outpouring that you're about to see. Sorry it's nothing too exciting. It's my life,though, and by the way, I am purposing to stop focusing on poor me and my issues, although they do need to be addressed. I'm not the only one who's having a rough time. I have close friends going thru things like a husband losing his job and having a child w/ Autism, another whose husband has decided that he doesn't love her, another whose husband had a questionable relationship that she'll never know the full extent of, another whose 1 year old daughter has to wear a brace on her upper body for a long time, another whose 3 year old son will never walk w/out a walker, another whose husband has a brain tumor that cannot be completely removed surgically, and these are just a few. It really is true that when I take my eyes and focus off of myself, I can start to gain a new perspective. A clearer perspective. Is this making sense? I know I've said this before, but I am not good at expressing my thoughts in writing. Wait, I have a hard time speaking them too. Oh well...

4 comments:

ann marie said...

I think you are excellent at expressing your thoughts. I am glad you left a comment on my site because it made me click over here. I loved this post.Okay, it looks like you have a lot more posts for me to check on. You looked so nice and sweet up there singing on Sunday, so peaceful. I will definately be back. I loved the service. It was great and my daughter liked it as well.

Tiffany said...

That is exactly what I have to do when I am in a funk--remind myself how much worse it could be. That always gives me perspective. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Mommyhood is hard and you are dealing with some difficult ages! Hang in there, this will pass, I promise!

atotallydifferentperson said...

AM - Thank you! Hope to see ya soon!

Tiff - Thanx for the encouragement. I keep saying to myself that I need to stop talking about my struggles, but I am just being real!

Julie said...

I know what you mean about other people's struggles putting everything into perspective, it is hard sometimes though because looking at everyone else in such trying situations can tend to make me feel sadder.