Thursday, April 10, 2008
contentment and other hard stuff
Someone recently shared w/ me about being content and enjoying where God has us right now. I'm really trying to, but find myself wishing my kids were out of this extremely physically dependent and constantly- in- need -of -training stage!!! Just when I think I've seen a breakthrough in Lydi, we have a day like today has been so far. From her waking up whining to her screaming "you're a rude Mommy" at me as I pulled her on her bike back home for a "tune-up" before we could finally get started on our morning walk! We've actually had a decent week ,where I've seen growth in her and that is encouraging. But I have such a hard time being ok w/ the ups and downs of the day w/ the kids, mainly Lydi. I have a hard time accepting that the perfect day of parenting is not coming. And I think, I know, that that's exactly what I need to do. I can admit that I mess up on a daily basis but I fail to be gracious when my child does. Being a Mom really brings so many of my heart issues to the surface! I just want to hurry up and be done w/ them, but that's not gonna happen either!!