Thursday, April 10, 2008

contentment and other hard stuff

Someone recently shared w/ me about being content and enjoying where God has us right now. I'm really trying to, but find myself wishing my kids were out of this extremely physically dependent and constantly- in- need -of -training stage!!! Just when I think I've seen a breakthrough in Lydi, we have a day like today has been so far. From her waking up whining to her screaming "you're a rude Mommy" at me as I pulled her on her bike back home for a "tune-up" before we could finally get started on our morning walk! We've actually had a decent week ,where I've seen growth in her and that is encouraging. But I have such a hard time being ok w/ the ups and downs of the day w/ the kids, mainly Lydi. I have a hard time accepting that the perfect day of parenting is not coming. And I think, I know, that that's exactly what I need to do. I can admit that I mess up on a daily basis but I fail to be gracious when my child does. Being a Mom really brings so many of my heart issues to the surface! I just want to hurry up and be done w/ them, but that's not gonna happen either!!

4 comments:

Tiffany said...

I can totally relate to this post! I struggle with contentment a lot of the time. I remember those days of them being so needy and how hard it was. Now, I miss those days...
I'm glad to hear that you've had an encouraging week with Lydi, even if today has been trying overall she is making progress. Hang in there!

smith schoolhouse said...

There are definitely some parts of your season in mothering that I do NOT wish to revisit!!! So be assured that you are perfectly normal to be wanting to rush it along! But, try your hardest not to because God has you in this stage to make you a stronger & better parent and to teach you to lean on Him more & more. These lessons will give you the perseverance you need later- trust me! This labor will truly pay off in beautiful harvest for Him!!! And already is!

Randi Sue said...

Yes, as Marissa said, you are normal. I think I really thought that Grace would never sleep in her own bed and now she complains if she can't. I could not see her ever learning to read and now she reads to her little sister. You will see a beautiful harvest.

Jessica said...

Hi Shelly,
I am glad that you are finding a voice to your frustrations. So many times we want to be seen as strong and capable, when we really need to be weak and rely on God and those who are in our lives. (As the other ladies said.) Keep up the good job. Patients is not someting we have, it is taught to us by the things we face. Just like love and grace. :^) Miss you guys!